so here goes nothing, as the blossoming flower begins to open for the day, what does the flower choose to do, go towards the sun? the sun the feeds her and helps her to grow and flurish? or does the flower go towards the small slug that keeps comming back for more, the snail thats so devilishly hard to resist!?!?

the snail that makes her feel good, and sexy inside, the snail thats is not right for it but still is able to make the flower feel happy, or go towards the sun and completely forget the snail thats been there for so long in the young flowers life =]

feelings out

Lately ive been questioning weather i am ready/able to be in a relationship again, i think about not being alone and having someone special tospend my time with and that makes me happy, but then something always clicks and i feel like i am not good enough for anyone....i always feel like i do not deserve to be happy or have fun with someone, i feel guilty.....i think about a loved one who passed away so young and left his adoring wife behind, and i think its not fair for me to be happy when she isnt....i dont know what to do anymore...
I have grown into someone new, Which in certin areas i am proud of myself in,
Eg: i can now look in the mirror and not be repulsed, i now can look at myself and think/say “I look good, i am young, energectic, and not obeese or anerxioc” i am actualy happy to look at myself in shop mirrors and try stuff on, whenbefore i wouldnt try anything on. id just buy it straight away without knowning if it looked good n me or not.
so for that i am proud...
although the costant feeling of not being good enough drives me nuts!

Ive been talking to someone i met somewhere where i shall keep to myself for now.....we have talked for about a week or two online and we have so much in common, well in my eyes we do.....he seems like an amazing person but i have the same thoughts of that he will turn mean or he will suddenly lose interest in me once we see each other face to face, im actually terrifyed he will!! i tryed not to be interested in him in hopes to trick my own mind, but after talking and having long convosations about important things in the world and different beliefs, and having fun and enjoyment in comming onto my computer to cheak my emails, it makes me happy, which is bad, idont want to be happy incase he makes me unpappy and it hurts :(

he made a comment to me week ago, that he used to be bullied about the way he looks and things, but from what i see of him, i dont see how anyone could pass judgement, he is a cute guy and not to meantion has a personalitly that is cool :) aghhhhh im doing it again! see? i talk nice and sweet about him, or i think about him and i get excited and happy, yet still scrared at same time that he will not feel the same after we eventually go out...

Im not much to look at, im an adverage female, blonde hair + blue eyes, i am more of a loner then of a social person.....Actually i take that back, when it comes to being online and talking with people i know im very social, in person i am not, i get very very shy........




aghhh i need help
xxxx

Again

are we destened to date the same men over and over again?
is it true do we have our own patterns and no matter what we do to change them we will always stay on them??

Gina-
 "yes its true, ive dated guys who where tall, dark, handsome and had huge passions for cooking but also had huge sex drive, to much for me to handle. i tryed to change the men ive dated but we always ended rather quick. So its true we cant help it"


is this really true??

what do you see in him?

alot of women say that they only date guys because of their personalitly and not there apperence.
is this really true? or do are we just giving up on standered's and giving up on the idea that everyone can find that one hot spunk in the pack of guys to be with.
i admit i once used to be one of those women who said i would only go for guys because of their personality and i would even lie to myself that i didnt care about looks. durring the times when i was dating the guys only for personality i realised when i was kissing them, so forth, i wasnt thinking of them, i was thinking of the guy on a cover of romantic book i saw in the book shop.
a past date recently began to talk to me again after such a very long time, i first thing i had noticed was that according to him he had lost a few kg since we last saw each other, and the only things i could think of was 'eww eww eewwwww' its a bad thing i know, but then after a while of talking to him, not only did i used to ignore the apperence and try not to give a rats ass about how the guy looks, i realised i ignored the personality also, i realised when we were dating i ignored his whole persona, i day dreamed of charatchers in movies and so on...

there it was, i noticed i wasnt looking for a man for his personalitly or his apperence, i was just looking for a man.


All i can think of is thankgod i finally opened my eyes and saw the world for what it really is!!!

Wedding speech joke

Wedding joke




big: Love is like a dove, or a big fuzzy glove?dont use that i might have stolen it from a greeting card.

carrie: ...Dont be silly weddings are a serious thing....

big: then shove wont work

Get over it

how long does it take for a woman to get over a man?
Some women in big city believe that its half the time you were in the relationship for example, if you were together for 2years, it will take you 1year to get over him.
yet on the other hand some women believe in getting right back up on the horse straight away after the break up.
so which way works best? if you were in a relationship for 10years is 5years too long to wait until you begin dating again?
which way works?

payback

is it alright for a woman to get back at a man who done her wrong?
Subject facts - Man and woman dated.man ignored woman for weeks with no reason. mad is dicktator(added the tator to be nicer). man then had another. woman hurt baddly.
is it allowed for a woman to get the man back after all of that?