Thursday, 17 November 2011
RANNT!
Lets
Talk
Crushes
haha this is a fun topic.
one of my friends who i still keep in contact with, i had a very long winded and highly anoyying crush on him for roughly 3 years, which was so anoyying because durring that time any guys i dated, i always thought of that one guy.LOL i was cheating in my own mind???
thankgod now that has ended and i just look back on it and think "omg what the fuck was wrong with me" haha and laugh, not to sure yet if he knows but im guessing he does. =] wasnt that hard to see,.
as as your aware its now kinda on the long distant friend whos in a realationship.
hahahaha
ever gone away and met someone AND just wanted to grab them by the collar and pull them into ur hotel room? yeah well that happened, i didnt pull him or anything, nor did we enter a hotel room, i basicaly stayed silent and didnt say anything, i just day dreamed it...
lol
Talk
Crushes
haha this is a fun topic.
one of my friends who i still keep in contact with, i had a very long winded and highly anoyying crush on him for roughly 3 years, which was so anoyying because durring that time any guys i dated, i always thought of that one guy.LOL i was cheating in my own mind???
thankgod now that has ended and i just look back on it and think "omg what the fuck was wrong with me" haha and laugh, not to sure yet if he knows but im guessing he does. =] wasnt that hard to see,.
as as your aware its now kinda on the long distant friend whos in a realationship.
hahahaha
ever gone away and met someone AND just wanted to grab them by the collar and pull them into ur hotel room? yeah well that happened, i didnt pull him or anything, nor did we enter a hotel room, i basicaly stayed silent and didnt say anything, i just day dreamed it...
lol
Just plain ranting
why is it when the boyfriend cheats the girlfriend of the boyfriend only get upset with the one whom the boyfriend cheats on with? i have been cheated on in mylife time, and i to was upset, although i think im the only person in the world to want to listen to the other womans side of the story and in the end i didnt blame her, i blamed the over sexed ex bf who got her drunk to begin with, and not to meantion told her that we have splitten up.
i have two sides in myself i have the side of me which would woop one of my best friends ass for cheating on his girl weather he was overly attached to her or not, and then i have my side who misses the best friend like crazy and dreams of the day when he will just pack up his belongings and decide to come live near me.
i do feel for both sides of the story, i wish i could tell his girlfriend never to let him go and to make sure she holds onto him forever,the girl is a fine girl, needs alittle bit of a overhaul in her looks but she is pretty, yet the other half of me wants to rip her eyes out and set her on fire. haha the cruel cruel world of me XD
when i think of her as just another girl that is in need of help, i know what to do, iknow how to help, i would bend the earths orbit to help the girl.....but when im the cheaters cheat, why do i still find it so unbearable that all i wanna do is help the poor girl??? even tho she is the gf of the friend??
gah the mental brain of me...so many thoughts going my head at once and 60% of them me feeling guilty for her, even tho i wouldnt take it back because of my respect and care for him.
id promised myself if he was to return id keep my thoughts occupyed by swapping my thoughts of wanting to just grab him and ... yeah with thoughts of homework and story writing. it does help, but im guessing should have come up with that idea before i saw him..and not after everything had happened. and hmm maybe i should have kept thinking of john howard(no offence) using him as a cooling off thought, lol, it helps me but yeah, i stoped trying to think about it because thinking about my mate was alot more appleing then the ex prime minister of australia.
btw for the record the males in my area suck..there rude selfish pigs, why is it i can only find the good decent guys in places 1000miles away for me..is it a sign im to end up alone? or maybe i should venture out into the wildness...
ive been to a few different places where ive met some of the most amazing guys, confrences in Qld and holidays, where we have met and exchanged emails and so forth, but knowing things will never be able to seariously happen because of the distance is a nightmare. and how do you tell someone who lives so far away that you have feelings for them? without wierding them out or horrorfying them? and are these "feellings" real? or just some hopeless fantacy?
new topic(although based within the main one)
would you tell your partner you cheated on them? not many do ahve the balls to tell the truth, when one of my ex's cheated on me, i found out because of photos on his phone of my "ex bestfriend" naked. Yes my best friend(now we are no longer friends of course) but yes, he had many of her, and he had sent many of him also, and it was more shocking to realise i hadnt even seen him without a shirt on, yet my best friend sees him naked. torn between two worlds, i hated him, and i hated her, then i realised she being her slutty self did it to him, although that realationship ended within a few seconds....
.........there was another relationship when my ex cheated on me, but that one ended alot differently, he told me, and i then went to his other and found out what exaccly happened and why, they were both honest and i understood, and i realised they didnt just do it for the sex or the fact to cheat, they had serious feelings for each other which me and him did not posses, we ended as friends, and even now to this day 3+ years on they are still together going stong and i couldnt be more happier for him and his partner.
if i had my way ultimately id have all my matwes from afare move to where im living, to be closer to them all and feel like i actually have a social life, like the tv show friends and big bang theory, i get quite jealous of them, being so close and always having another so close to them if they ever needed anything they were just right there.
im not one who get many friends, im very quiet when i meet people, sometimes i dont even speak at all, im blonde and reletivly a small size compared to quite alot of women these days. im not spotry although i do love the odd day of dancing around in my underwear to music. i do not tend to go out night clubbing or drinking to get drunk. im somewhat normal and quite boring, i do not deny that. i just dont understand what to do to become more social, trying to get invited to things and talk more to people doesnt help, ive tryed that, and i end up at the partys sitting alone by myself thinking "why the fuck do i bother' or i end up being forgotten after 5min.
i want so baddly to have the connections like most other people, and ive even given up with the whole issue of it, i just dont bother anymore, because in my mind i think why bother with something just to always have it blow up in ones face?
i have two sides in myself i have the side of me which would woop one of my best friends ass for cheating on his girl weather he was overly attached to her or not, and then i have my side who misses the best friend like crazy and dreams of the day when he will just pack up his belongings and decide to come live near me.
i do feel for both sides of the story, i wish i could tell his girlfriend never to let him go and to make sure she holds onto him forever,the girl is a fine girl, needs alittle bit of a overhaul in her looks but she is pretty, yet the other half of me wants to rip her eyes out and set her on fire. haha the cruel cruel world of me XD
when i think of her as just another girl that is in need of help, i know what to do, iknow how to help, i would bend the earths orbit to help the girl.....but when im the cheaters cheat, why do i still find it so unbearable that all i wanna do is help the poor girl??? even tho she is the gf of the friend??
gah the mental brain of me...so many thoughts going my head at once and 60% of them me feeling guilty for her, even tho i wouldnt take it back because of my respect and care for him.
id promised myself if he was to return id keep my thoughts occupyed by swapping my thoughts of wanting to just grab him and ... yeah with thoughts of homework and story writing. it does help, but im guessing should have come up with that idea before i saw him..and not after everything had happened. and hmm maybe i should have kept thinking of john howard(no offence) using him as a cooling off thought, lol, it helps me but yeah, i stoped trying to think about it because thinking about my mate was alot more appleing then the ex prime minister of australia.
btw for the record the males in my area suck..there rude selfish pigs, why is it i can only find the good decent guys in places 1000miles away for me..is it a sign im to end up alone? or maybe i should venture out into the wildness...
ive been to a few different places where ive met some of the most amazing guys, confrences in Qld and holidays, where we have met and exchanged emails and so forth, but knowing things will never be able to seariously happen because of the distance is a nightmare. and how do you tell someone who lives so far away that you have feelings for them? without wierding them out or horrorfying them? and are these "feellings" real? or just some hopeless fantacy?
new topic(although based within the main one)
would you tell your partner you cheated on them? not many do ahve the balls to tell the truth, when one of my ex's cheated on me, i found out because of photos on his phone of my "ex bestfriend" naked. Yes my best friend(now we are no longer friends of course) but yes, he had many of her, and he had sent many of him also, and it was more shocking to realise i hadnt even seen him without a shirt on, yet my best friend sees him naked. torn between two worlds, i hated him, and i hated her, then i realised she being her slutty self did it to him, although that realationship ended within a few seconds....
.........there was another relationship when my ex cheated on me, but that one ended alot differently, he told me, and i then went to his other and found out what exaccly happened and why, they were both honest and i understood, and i realised they didnt just do it for the sex or the fact to cheat, they had serious feelings for each other which me and him did not posses, we ended as friends, and even now to this day 3+ years on they are still together going stong and i couldnt be more happier for him and his partner.
if i had my way ultimately id have all my matwes from afare move to where im living, to be closer to them all and feel like i actually have a social life, like the tv show friends and big bang theory, i get quite jealous of them, being so close and always having another so close to them if they ever needed anything they were just right there.
im not one who get many friends, im very quiet when i meet people, sometimes i dont even speak at all, im blonde and reletivly a small size compared to quite alot of women these days. im not spotry although i do love the odd day of dancing around in my underwear to music. i do not tend to go out night clubbing or drinking to get drunk. im somewhat normal and quite boring, i do not deny that. i just dont understand what to do to become more social, trying to get invited to things and talk more to people doesnt help, ive tryed that, and i end up at the partys sitting alone by myself thinking "why the fuck do i bother' or i end up being forgotten after 5min.
i want so baddly to have the connections like most other people, and ive even given up with the whole issue of it, i just dont bother anymore, because in my mind i think why bother with something just to always have it blow up in ones face?
pain
how can one measure how happy she is? is there such thing as a happinamomiter??
how can one test the waters first? going to the middle of nowhere to try and see if one can survive there without going crimminally insane. how long should the test go for? a weekend? a week? 2? how much time and money has to be used before one can find out if it is practically good?!?!?!?!?
doubts doubts doubts! thats all thats going though my mind atm, thats all i can think of(besides a few small little key notes) being able to aford to do what one wants and being able to become anything i like, or staying with the family out of saddness and not wanting to make anyone upset?
what is one to do when one is torn between to great loves? her dreams and her family?
being young and able to ajust to things quite well is good if it was just me going, because then i would be able to come back home if i was to not like it, but what if we were to allpick up and go? there would be no home to back to?...
if i was able to get a job and study and do the whole bit bymyself i would try it out for a while. but then again, where would i live? i can hardly aford a tent let alone to buy a house, or rent...and who would i rent with? i dont know anyone, and if i were to somehow convice the bestie to move along with me, is it possible to even think about moving with her, when i cant even stay in same room as her for more then 10min.
how can one test the waters first? going to the middle of nowhere to try and see if one can survive there without going crimminally insane. how long should the test go for? a weekend? a week? 2? how much time and money has to be used before one can find out if it is practically good?!?!?!?!?
doubts doubts doubts! thats all thats going though my mind atm, thats all i can think of(besides a few small little key notes) being able to aford to do what one wants and being able to become anything i like, or staying with the family out of saddness and not wanting to make anyone upset?
what is one to do when one is torn between to great loves? her dreams and her family?
being young and able to ajust to things quite well is good if it was just me going, because then i would be able to come back home if i was to not like it, but what if we were to allpick up and go? there would be no home to back to?...
if i was able to get a job and study and do the whole bit bymyself i would try it out for a while. but then again, where would i live? i can hardly aford a tent let alone to buy a house, or rent...and who would i rent with? i dont know anyone, and if i were to somehow convice the bestie to move along with me, is it possible to even think about moving with her, when i cant even stay in same room as her for more then 10min.
distance
can love really outlast the distance?
i ask you this question.
i have heard of many different "great love" storys some good and bad endings.
a close family member went on a holiday for fun, where he met the love of his life, whom she actually lived across the country, thoughout the next couple years they met each other, went to visit and eventually fell inlove and got married.
is this possible for anyone or is this just a once off never to happen again?
i ask you this question.
i have heard of many different "great love" storys some good and bad endings.
a close family member went on a holiday for fun, where he met the love of his life, whom she actually lived across the country, thoughout the next couple years they met each other, went to visit and eventually fell inlove and got married.
is this possible for anyone or is this just a once off never to happen again?
Move it
The Move.
being a city chic, a woman with style, and girl who adores Gucci and COCO channel and of course alexander mcqueen, who adores the beach and walking about in a bikini and showing off to everyone that yes im still looking decent for a girl who occasionally eats the big mac or two....to suddenly pick up and move to a part of the country with no active lifestyle. allthough truthfully speaking, i have no social life tobegin with in the city, i have 2 friends and my family, for i am not really a social person, i get really shy and paranoid when it comes to meeting people for i am always afraid id get hurt again...would moving far away from this lifestyle help me go though my probems of being alone and help me become more of a social person? though the thought of being a country bumpkin/hillbilly scares the hell out of me because i cant leave the house with a good pair of 4inch steve maddens and a handbag ful of every cosmetic known to the human race, and not to meant5ion my wide selection of electrical gadgets. haha. could i really be able to do this?? i know within myself it is possible, for if i can run 1000mts in a race and win with a stuffed up knee i can do anything. ts just the belief that others have in me to do so is very small,which makes me paranoid that im going to have a mental breakdown in the middle of a crop of corn and marry my brother and have millions of freakky babies(hmm ive been watching to much of the simpsons again) haha i really do wonder tho can it work? being out of trouble and being slightly close tomy dream of being in the gold coast. working our way there seems like a good idea, although id miss certin parts of the city now, like the river,the beaches, the amazing shopping centers......aghh although there is now more of an online world of shopping, like ebay, monsters...and more..
could i really do this? could i really be wanting to move?!?!?!?
being a city chic, a woman with style, and girl who adores Gucci and COCO channel and of course alexander mcqueen, who adores the beach and walking about in a bikini and showing off to everyone that yes im still looking decent for a girl who occasionally eats the big mac or two....to suddenly pick up and move to a part of the country with no active lifestyle. allthough truthfully speaking, i have no social life tobegin with in the city, i have 2 friends and my family, for i am not really a social person, i get really shy and paranoid when it comes to meeting people for i am always afraid id get hurt again...would moving far away from this lifestyle help me go though my probems of being alone and help me become more of a social person? though the thought of being a country bumpkin/hillbilly scares the hell out of me because i cant leave the house with a good pair of 4inch steve maddens and a handbag ful of every cosmetic known to the human race, and not to meant5ion my wide selection of electrical gadgets. haha. could i really be able to do this?? i know within myself it is possible, for if i can run 1000mts in a race and win with a stuffed up knee i can do anything. ts just the belief that others have in me to do so is very small,which makes me paranoid that im going to have a mental breakdown in the middle of a crop of corn and marry my brother and have millions of freakky babies(hmm ive been watching to much of the simpsons again) haha i really do wonder tho can it work? being out of trouble and being slightly close tomy dream of being in the gold coast. working our way there seems like a good idea, although id miss certin parts of the city now, like the river,the beaches, the amazing shopping centers......aghh although there is now more of an online world of shopping, like ebay, monsters...and more..
could i really do this? could i really be wanting to move?!?!?!?
Love or Lust
does love at first sight really exist? or is it just a fanticy that we all like to believe in?
as someone who is rarely involeved with anyone and usually has minimal contact with males i have to believe in some form of love at first sight, because if i didnt id have nothing to look forward to in this world of the perfect woman.
how close is to close? what if say we have "jane" and her best friend is "joe" but joe is in a current relationship with "rose" what would you say is joe and jane became very close friends. friends with benifits if you will, they are close, they respect each other, they show a great deal of love towards one another, is it possible tostill continue to be the best of friends once rose has found out of there close-ness, is it safe to say you will still be friends after that problem, or is it human nature to ignore one another and pretend things didnt happen?
what to say of joe and rose becomming one in the act of marriage, would you expcect jane to sit by and watch the love of her life and possiblely her one and only true love give his heart away to a girl who atm of them being Very close was a nothing and just somebody he had to get used to?
gah!! as being jane the friend, id always say to let him go, be his friend and tell him to buy the most beautiful wedding ring and to take her on a honeymoon in the most romantic spot in the world.....but as jane the woman id say fuck her and marry me.
but im guessing you know which one i will choose for the sake of the friendship.
as someone who is rarely involeved with anyone and usually has minimal contact with males i have to believe in some form of love at first sight, because if i didnt id have nothing to look forward to in this world of the perfect woman.
how close is to close? what if say we have "jane" and her best friend is "joe" but joe is in a current relationship with "rose" what would you say is joe and jane became very close friends. friends with benifits if you will, they are close, they respect each other, they show a great deal of love towards one another, is it possible tostill continue to be the best of friends once rose has found out of there close-ness, is it safe to say you will still be friends after that problem, or is it human nature to ignore one another and pretend things didnt happen?
what to say of joe and rose becomming one in the act of marriage, would you expcect jane to sit by and watch the love of her life and possiblely her one and only true love give his heart away to a girl who atm of them being Very close was a nothing and just somebody he had to get used to?
gah!! as being jane the friend, id always say to let him go, be his friend and tell him to buy the most beautiful wedding ring and to take her on a honeymoon in the most romantic spot in the world.....but as jane the woman id say fuck her and marry me.
but im guessing you know which one i will choose for the sake of the friendship.
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